This is from a personal email I received in July 2004 from my friend. I hope her words encourage. She was a wonderful mother, wife, sister and phenomenal writer.
It sounds like you are going thru a bad patch as well. Why were you living with a drug addict? Where are you living now? Is your car still holding out okay? Have you been able to find work?
I have no way of knowing all of the things that you are going thru, but I can only imagine that it must become frustrating at times. This life is truly fascinating. Just as you figure that you might have a handle on it…it may seem that the rules change. But, actually, they have not. It’s only our perception that changes. I’m convinced that if we can manage to keep our vision focused on the Lord, things would flow much smoothly for us. But, alas, that may appear to be impossible to do, when actually it isn’t. It is a matter of putting our self aside. Denying ourselves daily. I know this may prove difficult if you are living in a shelter and straining hard to put food in your babies’ mouths, but God did say that He would provide us with everything that we need if we abide in Him…if we remember to put Him first at all times. To many this may sound like a God that is narcissistic, but truly it isn’t. He asks that we put Him first in our lives only because He knows what is best for us.